With my hubby B beign gone it seems like the days drag and the lonely nights never end. Days like today, when i dont talk to him and i dont know where he is are the hardest. What i would give for him to be home.
When we were getting closer to the deployment the less we talked about it. talking about it made it real, talking ment that without a doubt he was leaving. when i would try and talk about the serious things like funerals and what he would want to happen if something (god help me) were to happen to him, all he would say is "im coming home so there is no need to plan things like this." so now when i sit back and think about "what if" i get a sick feeling in my stomache. i hate to even think about it but if something were to happen there are no plans or things written in black in white saying what he wants. which would mean fights with the MIL......dont even get me started...... and me becoming completely useless at that point. sometimes i just wish he never joined. at times i feel like the army does more screwing with our lives and effing things up then they help us achive life goals.....which is why he joined.
well today i got my military wife's chicken soup for the soul book......just delivered by UPS!!! hopefully its as good as i heard. well got to finish dinner, got a docotors appointment at 8 (kinda late right...thats what i thought).
until next time..........
Leaving on a Jet Plane
1 year ago